To Start With...

I started reading back! And strangely I am realizing now as to how much I missed it!

Few books finished , not with the same speed, not with the same voracity or avidness. Yet I am just feeling so wonderful!  

Well, but that's not the whole point. I looked at the pattern. 

I picked up 'The Broker' by John Grisham. Being repeat reader of 'The Firm' and 'The Client', this one turned out to be a pretty lukewarm experience. On each page, I waited for the twist, the wowness experienced in earlier books. But none came. Kind of anti-climax.  

Then, got '80 Days of Yellow'. Kind of dragged through it. Almost gave up midway. But wanted to see what's the end. And when I reached the end realised that it has a sequel. Grrrr. Couldn't dare myself to pick up the sequel. This author duo has another famous novel n recently released movie called '50 shades of Grey'. This I realised much later. Guess reading reviews helps sometimes. Anyway..

Then read reviews, searched, chose and picked 'The Book Thief'. I read it extremely slowly. Not wanting it to finish, devouring every bit. All the time spent on it was more than worth it. Beautiful style of narration. I will remember it for a long long time. And yet I got a strange feeling with it that I do not have any more patience left for repeat reads. I will not pick it again. 

A couple of weeks before, in a yet another 'surprise me!' mode picked  up a book called 'The Wild Girl'.  It went untouched for a week. Just didn't feel like picking it up. N then one day in bored mode, started with it. So far seems to be extremely interesting. 

When I used to read before, it was a similar pattern. However, I did manage to leave a couple of them unfinished out of boredom. (Recalling one of them to be 'The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari' zzzzz....)

Now, the notorious habit of putting philosophy in every teeny-tiny thing in life is gonna die hard.
So here it comes.. ;)

Tried to read the pattern-

Some were loved! Didn't want them to finish. For some you may want repeat experience and get it too. For Some you may just want to savour on that first taste. 

Some had high expectations but failed flat, some were not extremely interesting and yet not extremely dull, not too happy for them not too sad. 

Then there are few which left unfinished. Some were not of my taste yet I walked through it, cause I wanted to see where it went. 

There were some which I thought were wrong choice and turning out to be quite interesting. Unexpected delights!

Point is to start. Whatever is on the mind start and see where it takes you. Everything teaches something. 

If you decide to turn your back on the whole thing you are just going to realise much later that you have been missing out on so much!

Am not really talking about books any more. But you know that already right?

Slow Motion Days

Has it ever happened to you?

Too many things happening at one time. Rushed days. Deadlines. Sleeping late in night and getting up early. 

Thoda thoda bhag bhag sa...

Deadline is done. All went well. Good job! Phew.  

You come home. Bit relaxed. Resolve to catch up on sleep and sleep early. 

There is this one bit of personal work you been holding off for so loong. Cause you were so super busy with deadline. You tell yourself, "you are in the momentum of getting early these days. You are sleeping early today. Why dont you get up early just one day tomorrow and finish off that task". Sounds good, Logically ;)

As resolved you sleep early. But, you keep tossing up and turning around on bed. You would have thought it will be instantaneous aha sleep. But nope your mind is still jogging. Not thinking anything specific now. But just jogging, keeping you wide awake. 

Finally, you fall asleep. Peacefully! After many days. 

Early morning, alarm rings. Snooz snooz snooz snooz.

'Oh, forget about that task yaar. Will do it later. I procrastinated so long it can wait another day. Let me just sleeeeep.'

You get up at very last minute, when its necessary to get up and start getting ready. Slooooowwllyy. 

You can feel yourself doing everything in sssslllooww motion. Everything taking more time than usual. You drag your feet. And reach office. After a sluggish hour or two. You are back in grind and back to normal speed. By evening you are normal :)

Thats the mind fatigue, i guess. 

Its like a warrior. With deadlines, days run together. Its like One big day. While sleeping, eating you are constantly alert. Awake. Thinking.  

When you keep weapons down the mind is still jittered. Still in the warrior moment. 

When it sleeps, it has accepted the battle is over. That exhaustion gets in form of slow motion the next day. 

I sort of cherrish such days. Its a sign of battle and battle won successfully. 

Don't know if it makes any loggical sense. 

If i get that pride out of my ordinary life and really minimal efforts,  its unimaginable what a solider, sportsman or any person  who takes on tones of hardwork to meet their goals would be feeling. 

Hopefully, in an effort to create more slow   motion days puts me to do more goal oriented work! 

 

Waves

Patience is a virtue of a surfer.

Wait wait and wait till that ride and then just ride on it :-)

At the expense of sounding cliche... am too waiting for a thought wave to ride on it;)
Its been a while a felt that weightlessness and grace and contentment...

But u know what, the surfers go with their surfboard to the right beach and right time. I wonder if i have that.

Either i am stupid enough not to chose carefully on it or just naive to let past waves which a skilled surfer would ride with bounty.

Guess i just think too much.... Should simply be just about enjoying the moment as is ... :)

Saturation

Just so so so tired and irritated with the daily routine….

Yearning for something different… just anything…

Some TV shows or some movies or just lazing around or just plain sleeping.

N unexpectedly and suddenly that time presents itself to do just about anything that you want…
The opportunity is grabbed!

Yupiee, let me enjoy…you start watching movies, serials back to back, fast forwarded. 1, 2, 3, 4…All finished done whatever you wanted to watch.

Then you sleep sleep sleep. ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Wake up and you are so fully content. No more yearnings… ( for at least next couple of months ;))

These things add absolutely Nothing to my life… and yet they are just so important. Cause they propel me in the daily grid rejuvenated and with much more vigour.

Choice and Preferences

One simple example…

You want to drive or go from here to Majestic or railway station or airport whatever… Basically you want to go from one place to another…

One of you would take a shortest route…

One of you would take a little longer route which according to you would be traffic free…

One of you would take even longer route which has very few signals…

One of you would not bother about the distance at all, you want to take a route with lot of street lights and people on it. Safer it is in these days you say.

All of you would take different time to reach your destinations..That may also depend on the time of the day.

Which one is the best route? One which made you reach faster?

One of you wanted shorted distance..

One of you no traffic, one of you no signals, one of you safety…

Can time you took to reach cover all Your choices while deciding the best?

Can what is best for you be best for someone else? Nope!

This applies to practically everything in life!!

This had limited major able combinations. Take another example and you can make uncountable number of permutations and combinations…

Ok, now got that, so what is exactly the point?

Point is just that don’t judge people on the difference in choices which you are making and what they are making. They are obviously going to be different than your! Cause they are NOT you! They are not looking at it what you are looking at!

Someone is going to have a lot of buffer in estimating a task cause they are just not sure.. They are afraid of over committing and under delivering… But someone just like to be driving everyone to do a little more…

Someone is going to take recipe from you and do so much of variations to it that its going to be unrecognizable… cause they want to innovative and are experimental…but some would go for Just that authentic taste..

Someone is just going to take whatever you gave to them as a gift lovingly, cause that gift reminds them of you and your love for them…but some may not..they just want that just right T-shirt…

So just let people be. Stop having unnecessary expectations from them. Just be Cool!!

The choices they are making are not because of you. They are because of their own preferences of things…as simple as that!